Is it normal to feel that for the most part, things will NOT be good the next couple weeks? I am dreading getting "slammed" at my job, but I know an absolute TON of long days are lurking and there is nothing I can do about it. I am going to go in this weekend to try and get whatever I can out of the way but there really isn't much I can prepare for in advance, I'm going to need to "roll with it." UGH. Naturally this, standing alone, puts a cloud over everything. Then add to the fun half the staff and several of my colleagues are completely lazy and worthless, forcing me to "pick up their slack" and think semi-homicidal thoughts when confronted with such behavior (this happens on a daily basis). For example, I had to (pathetically) eat lunch at my desk every day this week in order to return phone calls with incomplete messages (that ended up being simple questions any administrative support person could have answered, had they taken the time to ask) or any number of other BASIC tasks various other people are normally in charge of carrying out. Why was I silently fuming while catching up on their work, you might ask? Because of course you see these individuals every day and have to deal with them so you can't ever say what you REALLY think. I've been ready to explode by the end of the day lately. The highest-up in our office is practically bi-polar, either super nice or a raging asshole, so my "emotional bank account" is, shall we say, overdrawn. It doesn't help that THE most useless person happens to be a major ally of our head supervisor (is that always the way it works in an office? quite ironic!) It is very upsetting to essentially be punished for being diligent and know I have to endure it or risk making my career even more miserable. I'm hoping the light at the end of the tunnel will be shining brightly in a couple months because (knock wood) I should be promoted no later than September and I'll move to a completely different building and hopefully never see most of them again. And blah blah blah what doesn't kill you will make you stronger.
Adding to the joy, recent conflicts between friends in my social life (or lack thereof would be a more accurate description these days) are weighing on my mind. I just wish everyone could get along. I hate being drawn into bullshit like that and I try to stay WAY out of it. On the other hand, even when you try to be impartial, opinions tend to form regardless and I end up with total cognitive dissonance. I guess I could be thankful I'm not really involved and leave it at that instead of stressing over it. I obsess enough as it is!