shattered dreams
September had a lot of ups and downs. I wouldn't call it the worst ever, but the last day of the month was very bittersweet for me.
On the plus side, I now have a wedding to plan. I'm liking the idea of coordinating all the details but I don't know how easy it will be to execute my vision.
The houseguest is gone, but it took a heavy emotional toll and almost negated the need to plan my wedding.
I thought I would be promoted at work (finally) but my (selfish) supervisor said she wants to keep me where I am EVEN LONGER because I am such a good example that I can train other employees (which isn't one of my duties) blah blah compliments. It is so disappointing, I am overdue to advance, and expected it to be the topic of our meeting. I didn't bother hiding how upset I was, and I told her that I felt like I was being punished for excelling. The people who are doing poorly should be directed to get cracking, *I* should NOT be held back to bolster their performance. It is completely unfair. Maybe in the long run that wasn't the savviest approach to take, but at this point I'm not being paid enough to care and I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I didn't at least articulate the truth.
The only positive aspect to remaining where I am is that the handful of colleagues and co-workers who count recognize how unjust the situation is and are going out of their way(s) to be nice to me. So at least I'm not being mistreated all around.
On the plus side, I now have a wedding to plan. I'm liking the idea of coordinating all the details but I don't know how easy it will be to execute my vision.
The houseguest is gone, but it took a heavy emotional toll and almost negated the need to plan my wedding.
I thought I would be promoted at work (finally) but my (selfish) supervisor said she wants to keep me where I am EVEN LONGER because I am such a good example that I can train other employees (which isn't one of my duties) blah blah compliments. It is so disappointing, I am overdue to advance, and expected it to be the topic of our meeting. I didn't bother hiding how upset I was, and I told her that I felt like I was being punished for excelling. The people who are doing poorly should be directed to get cracking, *I* should NOT be held back to bolster their performance. It is completely unfair. Maybe in the long run that wasn't the savviest approach to take, but at this point I'm not being paid enough to care and I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I didn't at least articulate the truth.
The only positive aspect to remaining where I am is that the handful of colleagues and co-workers who count recognize how unjust the situation is and are going out of their way(s) to be nice to me. So at least I'm not being mistreated all around.
2 Comments:
Fabdiva,
CONGRATULATIONS on your engagement! I'm sorry to hear that September has been a rough month for you & that you didn't get promoted at work for a lame-ass reason (wouldn't it be more of a motivating factor to the others to see that your hard work paid off?!), hang in there girl! I hope October is better for ya!
Thanks! :) I hope so, too.
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