bambambam

Maybe this is just how things go down in MY world, but it always seems like stuff happens in rapid succession. I can be bored, or minding my own business, and then out of nowhere all these issues simultaneously demand my attention.

Ok, I'm re-reading what I've typed and I hope I don't sound like a pompous asshole who thinks she is SOOOOO important with all these pressing concerns, because I definitely don't. I guess I'm just musing, that the cliche "when it rains, it pours" rings true for me. Of course I can multi-task because that is one of the blessings of being an OCD type-a personality and loving the ritual of organization, but sometimes you actually have to *gasp* wait and see how something will pan out. Or *double gasp* you have no control whatsoever over the outcome.

Being occupied is good - to a point. I hope the pace levels off soon, I don't want to end up "with exhaustion" like celebrities claim. I adore ~possibility~ but it is a double-edged sword because it simultaneously stresses me out. For example, I'm excited about my job, but I hope I don't fuck up and embarrass myself. I'm happy to be looking for a house, but what if I buy one and a better property comes along? My b/f is probably going to propose soon (add "intuitive" to my KSAOs) and even after a few years I'm wondering if that is the right step. And if I do take that step, I'll have to add wedding planning to my already overflowing list of tasks to complete.

Ok, signing off before I psych myself out even further. Going to throw this nervous energy into cooking, which is enough to make anybody laugh, including me :-) Though I think it would be pretty difficult to mangle black beans and saffron rice.